Happy Anniversary

Unable to Die

So much time has passed it seems a lifetime
And yet I am still tormented, still plagued
My soul still bleeding as if the cut were new
My memory will not allow the wound heal
I have tried so hard to put it all behind me
But sorrow grips me at each and every turn
I work to gather the pieces of my broken life
To find that each piece grumbles in my hands
I grab at each fleeting mirage of happiness
But it is like trying to gather water in a net
Seeking friends perchance to lesson my burden
Only to find I loathe the company of others
A tortuous loneliness overwhelms me
Yet still I can not give my heart to another
Ripping desire engulfs me in lustful thought
But any hint of intimacy racks me with guilt
I have cried out to the heavens for salvation
To find that it is possible to be beyond saving
Like an immortal chained to the ocean floor
I am destined to live without love unable to die